When Ben was really little, there was a show on PBS Sprout Called It’s A Big, Big World.
He really loved that show. And I loved it, too. It was so sweet and had a simple song at the end that he had memorized, and would sing to:
The world goes spinning round and round it’s true
We’ve had our time and now we’re through
But you and I forever will be friends
We’ll try to touch the sky where clouds never end
And we’ll search for wonder all around
And you’ll find me hanging upside down
And you and I together in a big, big world
We’ll try to touch the sky in a big, big world
You have to go I know it’s time
So give me five
This whole world
Is yours and mine
When Snook (the sloth) says, “So give me five…” he’d extend his rather large paw towards the television set, and Ben would always place his small cherubic hand over Snook’s. It always gave me warm fuzzies.
While this show was in syndication, Ben was into construction vehicles. He could tell you the name of every single digger truck, and he’d always call a skid steer a “kid steer”. A trip to the John Deere store was a fascinating journey for him.
As time has gone on, his construction DVD’s and movies have been silently collecting dust. The other day I saw a grader on t.v., and asked him if he knew the name of it. He had no clue. The only reason I knew the name, was because of him.
In moments like that, I feel sad. It’s a constant reminder that he won’t stay the same. So many times over the course of his 6 years since being born, I’ve wanted to just push the pause button. I love the kid he’s turning out to be, but I mourn for the loss of my little boy who would place his hand over Snook’s. The one who would do anything to cuddle up onto Mama’s lap. Sometimes, I would give anything to hear him say “sues” for shoes, or “mamayto” for tomato.
I always knew he couldn’t stay that way forever, and he has to grow up, just like the rest of us did. I’m excited to see Ben’s love for insects and reptiles. He kicks some serious butt in karate class, and he’s a bright, funny kid who I enjoy immensely (when he’s not wreaking havoc).
There will be times though, where I miss this: