Holy crap. I haven’t been on in almost a month. Has it really been that long? A quick glance at my blog tells me that yes, it certainly has.
I want to ask the other moms out there (and dads, if you want to contribute, please do): How do I get over the mommy guilt? Dads, how do you get over the daddy guilt? Or, do you even have the guilt? Do you feel just as bad as I do, taking even 30 minutes, sometimes more or sometimes less, to do something all for you?
Right now, my son is watching a 30 minute movie, and I think, “What the hell is wrong with me? We could be _________________ (going for a walk, reading a book, playing a game, learning, doing something productive).” And here I am with my ass on the couch, blogging. I know his brain won’t melt. And, he’s watching a construction DVD, so he’s at least learning something that may be of use to him someday in the future, perhaps? Look at me, trying to justify my not spending time with him.
When I started this blog, I had grand ideas. And I still do! So much of what I want to accomplish will come later, after the new year so right now, this is a place for me to talk and pretend I have other grown ups surrounding me. You know, before we had kids and the focus of conversation was on ourselves and not on our children. And not to say I don’t enjoy having the topic be about my son; you will find that most of what I talk about on this blog consists of being a parent. How do I get around the guilt though? This doesn’t just surround my family, it’s also house cleaning related too. Right now, I’ve got my eye on items that need to be picked up and put away, dishwasher that needs to be emptied and re-loaded. How can I ignore that?
Does anyone have suggestions? Anyone? I can tell you that I have so many things I want to write about swarming in my head…. yet the mommy guilt trumps those thoughts every time!